Let It Go

Before we continue, got an update to things following me making this blog initially

Alongside the dislike mentioned above that happened only hours after his confession to stalking me, last night (November 5th) I once again got hit on this stream of The Last of Us.

So yea given this is still happening and I'm aware its him, safe to say he was full of shit and only faking being remorseful just as I figured he was, hasn't moved on from anything, and is still doing what he said he'd never do again.

So only more to add on to everything else that'll ensure you never succeed as a creator given you lied to your viewers and were completely disingenuous in expressing remorse in a post that I'm sure was done for your own benefit by pretending to be sorry, saying you learned from your mistakes, and that you were going to be a better person solely for the sake of getting a few head pats from people because you're suddenly such a good boy with no actual care for those you wronged.

And that's your problem, all you care about is yourself to where even you owning up is only for the sake of your own benefit but its fine because its not my channel you've tarnished but your own and given this blog has already gained some traction on social media? Well whatever decline your channel falls further into now is your problem and you brought it on yourself because I tried to tell you.

Original post continued below.

So, got a statement on something I want to address rogues against my better judgment given multiple times I've said I wouldn't speak on it anymore only to get pulled back in.

Last night multiple people sent me a screenshot where a certain someone (who I won't give the benefit of being acknowledged by name anymore than I have before) mentioned me in a post (I didn't get a notification to it since I have them muted for him but this only backs up why YouTube needs to make bans mean they can't contact you at all).

They outright confessed to stalking me and harassing me in a post on their YouTube channel (which btw they've since removed the confession from that post but thankfully I took a screenshot of the confession beforehand as can be seen below) in what came off as an apologetic post of self reflection while claiming they'll never do it again (which aged as poorly as milk given what I shared above), that it hasn't happened since they initially were disrespectful, and that they believe in me and my future.

Says all that, yet those targeted dislikes have still been happening on every one of my streams even though he claims he isn't focused on me and that I'm a memory of people he's disconnected with (which it dumbfounds me how he keeps talking like we were actually friends given there was never a connection to begin with and only two times that he stopped by stream before getting banned for being rude and thus slamming the door on any chance of a friendship).

All his content (both posts and streams) where he's trash talked me, lied about me, and even threatened to have my channel shut down (contrary to that aforementioned claim in the post that he believes in me) are still on his page.

And I still have that folder of screenshots on my computer of all the threats, defamation, etc in his own words that prove that there were far more instances of his attacks than what he claims that have gone on for months just as my stream here where I shared all the screenshots he tried to delete from his channel proves such.

Not to mention a massive contradiction here.

Admits to stalking, yet says that after they were rude it never happened again. Stalking someone means repeated instances of harassment, not just one time.

And there's how they said they didn't mean to stalk me or be a bad person but they were and so they got banned when the actual way it went was they got banned THEN stalked me after.

That said, continuing to come by my channel to dislike my stuff (yes I know its you as I've said before and I'm also sure the second dislike that keeps popping up is you under one of your alts) isn't learning from your mistakes dude and only repeating them, which btw when I get a dislike after going live only a few hours after your post trying to act apologetic to me? Yea, kinda takes the validity from it, same with each dislike since then.

Especially given this is just like a past post you did where you claimed you learned from your mistakes then went right back to attacking me (again as shared above, told you guys so).

Where you said previously that you believed in me, yet had just threatened that my channel was going to be shut down a week prior.

For clarification to those reading, he reported my stream where I called him out because it was "misleading" when all of the screenshots of what he had said to and about me were front and center and thus I was crystal fucking clear on what I was talking about. Not to mention with him admitting to stalking me which is exactly what the vlog was about? That means he himself is confirming what I had said was the truth, not misleading, and thus a false report that he made to YouTube.

In other words miss me with your claim of ”didn't want to be a stalker or a bad person to him” because you knew full well what you were doing and there's NO excuse especially when you outright threatened me by saying you wouldn't stop harassing me until I unbanned you from all accounts, even trying to get people to believe you were innocent and that I was crazy in an attempt to gaslight me while claiming I was stalking you.

You claim to be in your 20's so you should know right from wrong just as common sense would normally conclude that a ban means someone doesn't want you around which is contrary to you saying “I didn't know he didn't want nothing else to do with me” previously after you were banned and you making multiple alts to get around that backs it up that you knew full well. Just as you knew full well after you tried to join my Discord and were instantly banned given you outright said in your first stream where you talked about it that you shouldn't have used your real name.

Now as much as you don't deserve it, I'm going to give some solid advice as someone who's been streaming for several years compared to you to and that's in what he feels is a position in his platform as a partnered creator give some advice because that's the person I am who hopes to help others, something I attempted to do when I tried to tell you to how frowned upon self promotion is in the stream community only for you to throw it back in my face and act like you knew more than me after only a few months of streaming when I've been doing this over almost a decade across multiple streaming platforms and seen first hand how quickly channels go belly up because they take the self promo/follow for follow route.

Harassing and attacking others for trivial reasons (such as getting banned on their channel) is only going to lead to you ruining yourself as a creator which is exactly what you've already done heavily.

You talk of all these grand plans for your channel next year as if you haven't been tearing your own channel apart and as if people in the streaming community aren't aware of your actions and how toxic you've been to others.

As if that stain on your name (regardless of how much you change it) isn't going to grow larger and more people aren't going to be talking about what you've done as you yourself grow.

As if you actually deserve success after trying to destroy someone's channel they've worked hard on as a potential way to support themselves financially while trying to make their life and the lives of their friends hell for months with no remorse while talking about "ragebaiting" them as if its a joke to you.

Wanna know a good reason for why your subscriber growth slowed down? What if it's because you attacked me and others and ended up with a nasty reputation because of it to where people are avoiding you and outright unfollowing you? That you're reaping what you sow?

You did a stream where you literally couldn't even focus on your gameplay and stopped playing at multiple points just to type my name on YouTube to see what I was doing, out right saying “lemme look up Masquemare” while also tagging me and my friends in your posts WHILE you were live. That is a sad and beyond obessive level of me living rent free in your head among all the other points made and to be made in this blog.

Speaking of, you keep doing posts about others to keep drama going which people obviously don't want to hear.

You've claimed this whole beef started because I didn't compliment you over a sub milestone you brought up in my chat when anyone can go back and watch the stream where you started all this and see that even though you broke my self promo rule? I still took the time to be respectful and give you that compliment that I by all accounts was not obligated to give and which you lied to others and said never happened to make me look like the villain.

And you get into comment wars with every person you don't like that you decide is just a "hater" when maybe just maybe its you that's the problem, something you've now admitted you have been in this whole pointless situation with me and you.

Not to mention if that's the way you currently handle every person who comments negatively on your content compared to ignoring them and moving on? Then you're definitely not ready for if you ever become big as a content creator because things like that will become much more common and you won't get anywhere without thick skin because trolls will feed on that like ants on a piece of meat that falls on their hill.

Have you considered that a reason no one much ever likes your posts where you've mouthed off about me and you have very few likes to go with all the traffic on your streams where you talked about me are because your viewers don't approve of what you're saying and are possibly even tired of seeing it? Dude some of them have even come to me and TOLD me what you've said.

Ever think that they show up to see you play the games they enjoy playing themselves and not a bunch of schoolyard level drama?

No one gives a fuck about your beef with me or whoever else and instead want you to focus on the damn game you're playing and if you're going to constantly bring drama to things when you're live, aka on the clock then you don't need to be streaming if you can't put a line between your professional and personal life in that regard. Do you really think YouTube isn't going to look at all that if you ever do get to go for partnership? Do you truly believe that they're going to want someone so toxic representing them?

No one with a shred of decency or maturity wants to subscribe to a channel where the creator is constantly bashing others in their posts and bringing their personal issues with others up on stream constantly instead of focusing on the actual stream and entertaining them, let alone where they feel like the only thing the streamer cares to see them as is the another number for their subscriber counts that they won't shut up about

What you say online leaves a digital footprint that no deletion or empty apology is going to cover up and now you're on record caught in 4K confessing in your own words that you did the things you consistently claimed I was lying about with it already making the rounds even if you delete the post.

You get that? Its out there now and there's no going back, no take backs, no making claims that I'm the bad guy, no deleting your posts to try and slap a bandaid on things.

You openly admitted to stalking me contrary to all the times you tried to say I was stalking you (which btw, also can come with legal consequences for those false claims) and people now know (your own followers included) and across multiple social platforms, not just from me calling you out previously but you yourself owning up to it now and people sharing the screenshot of it with me and others.

THAT is what you're known for now by both my evidence I shared and your own post and will continue to be known for in the content creation space moving forward.

And this time it wasn't even me that took a screenshot of it initially but other people who did and told me about what you said.

What you've done is also the same exact kind of thing that has lead to innocent people getting hurt or imprisoned due to being wrongfully accused of things they never did by someone. It's not a game nor something to lie (or in your words “ragebait”) about and people in the streaming community do NOT take kindly to such actions especially given how many occurrences there have been of streamers having obsessed viewers show up in their city to stalk them with malevolent intent

I told you to remove all content about me from your page and you didn't.

To stay off the channels of me and my friends, and you refused (btw more evidence that you've still been around is how you started calling your viewers "legends" on a few occasions which coincidentally enough is what one of my friends calls his fanbase and after you previously tried to copy my "rogues" phrase in a failed attempt to get under my skin, not to mention copying the birthday post one of my friends did where she spoke on a subscriber goal by claiming it was your birthday to the same effect only several hours after to pull a few subs yourself. Yea, we know about that too).

Her post and his post he did several hours later rogues for clarification. Its hilarious how desperate of an attempt to copy someone to gain a few subs that this was.

In all, I told you to move on and leave us alone. It's all you had to do which to be honest wasn't just for my sake but me actually still having some compassion towards you (which again you didn't deserve) in trying to keep you from damaging yourself more.

This came after you even went as far as to try to target me only minutes after I got news that one of my family members had died. I didn't even have a chance to process everything because I was too busy dealing with you (and lets not talk about you recently bringing up my family member's death on your own channel in a post you made to bash me when it was none of your business to talk about it and just a sick thing to do period).

If you would've let things go from the beginning things wouldn't have got to where they are.

And also to add on, from what I've gathered that's been making the rounds your attitude also hasn't done you any favors with your own friend group with some of them even commenting on stream recently before your Gang Beasts tournament about how you get so angry about things, some even starting a match without you during the tournament.

And don't get mad at them about their comments because they're right dude. Look at this whole situation as an example.

If there was a chance at a friendship or possibility of even gaming with me and my friends to develop at the start you destroyed that with your attitude and getting so angry over me politely asking you to obey my channel rules.

Keep going the way you are and you're going to lose those friends that you DO have that have tried to put up with your behavior. I don't know them personally but from my own experience with you I'll say that if they do put up with your attitude then they have a lot more patience than me and you should treat them better.

And I say that as someone who knows firsthand what having a bad attitude can do to friendships which is why even if I'm not perfect I've made efforts over the years to do better because multiple people come to mind that I wish every day I could make things right with while also wanting to do good by those currently in my life.

So if, and big IF there is any chance left of you recovering and actually salvaging what you have, maybe learn to stop competing with and tearing others down, stay in your own lane, learn to respect boundaries, and own up when you screw up instead of blaming everyone else for the very problems you create which again to remind you here you ADMITTED last night to creating these problems.

If you didn't spread so much hate, maybe you wouldn't have so many “haters” which as far as times go where you called me a hater towards you? Even at one point saying "they hate you because they ain't you" about yourself (which btw its funny how you took that from one of my viewers who said the same thing during my stream where I called you out).

Trust me, I'm glad I'm not you so don't flatter yourself with thinking you're above me or anyone else. And I don't hate you because I'm not you, I despise you because YOU are you.

A self centered lying little parasite that can't function on his own without leeching off other channels successes and has to bully those he thinks are too weak to fight back in an attempt to make himself feel more dominant and thus better about his own mediocre existence, all while having delusions of grandeur regarding respect and success he acts like he's entitled to.

Saying it bluntly? You don't deserve any of the subscribers you've gained nor do you deserve a place in the content creation community.

And after the pain you've caused others there's a large part of me that finds happiness in knowing you're gonna crash and burn.

Because I can promise you that there are a lot of other people in the content creation space that don't like you either and don't want you in the streaming community due to your toxicity.

I don't like bragging and try to stay humble and grounded on my accomplishments, but I'm partnered with YouTube, Streamloots, and most recently GamerProfiles, a merch shop that I've made a few sales on (with one of my friends even coming from 5+ hours out of state for my final year of haunt acting last year wearing my merch), regulars who show up regardless of what game I'm playing and for movie nights on my Discord, a dedicated team of friends I group with regularly for multiplayer content, a fairly badass streaming room that was made possible by those who donated to my channel over the years, my own logos and channel assets that I taught myself how to make, a stream setup that once again wouldn't have been possible without those who've supported my channel, and alongside all that a simple love for streaming not just as something I want to make a career of, but as a hobby that I just enjoy sharing with others.

All this as I've explained before came after someone much worse than you actually succeeding in destroying my previous community and so much momentum that I had to the point that I had to start over because of their lies.

And that person is currently struggling to get anywhere as a creator with them barely even reaching 100 public watch hours towards YouTube partner in the span of a year after I came out with what they did to me and word getting around. Let that sink in before you consider running your mouth about me again or leaving another one of those desperate little dislikes thinking its going to damage my channel anywhere near as much as what you've already done to yourself.

Now side note rogues before we continue.

What he'll likely try and tell you as he did with me not long ago that it hasn't been him disliking my content.

Here's the thing. When he tagged me in a post explaining such (which he deleted but I still have a screenshot of) it was while also claiming he wasn't following me anymore nor coming by my channel at all.

And this was in response to a post I did prior where I addressed the spam dislikes and him still remaining subscribed to get notifications of my streams with no mention of his name and no tagging him just to see if I could trick him into replying which is exactly what he did.

He wouldn't have known about the post at all unless he was either following me to get notifications, still coming by without following, or less likely, had someone spying on me for him thus his reply proved to me that he was still lurking around. What I've learned about him is how terrible of a liar he is both in delivery and also not covering his tracks.

But lets not forget this is the same guy who claims to have a bachelors degree yet can't spell for shit and claimed that he gets paid $50 to $80 a week on YouTube when he isn't even partnered (which I doubt YouTube would condone someone claiming to be paid by them and by that account pretending to be partnered with them).

Anyways moving on.

I built myself up previously on a site called Mixer, lost basically everything due to them, and even if things aren't perfect I rebuilt what I have so far. And I take pride in that even if I'm still far off from where I want to be as a creator.

So I have no reason to hate on you other than all your actions mentioned here and with that I have no reason to be jealous of you because I've busted my ass to get what I have without taking shortcuts, reuploading other people's content for views, etc. You have NOTHING I want nor anything worth being jealous over. You have to rely on a single game popular with all these 12 year olds that come to your streams who aren't there for you or that annoying ass laugh of yours and instead only for the game, all while having nothing to offer in your chats but toxicity and even people arguing with each other (again, word's been getting around a LOT dude). I have people who show up regardless of what game I'm playing and enjoy my personality and the friendly atmosphere I try to offer as well as each other's company with no fighting, no toxicity in the chat (with anyone who tries getting banned as you yourself learned all too well), people just being kind to each other, talking about their day, and simply being decent human beings to each other.

Again, I hate you because I ain't you? No, you hate me because you ain't me, and you never will be at the same level as I am as a content creator because you don't respect streaming as a passion compared to just wanting to get rich or famous from it, you don't respect your viewers as people behind the numbers, and you damn sure don't respect the stream community which is why they don't respect you.

If anything I pity you for living a life where you've felt a need to be so hateful to others constantly.

More so when it's all over a person you met online and talked to for less than an hour when it really was never that big of a deal. You wanted to say in one of your posts that I would be "depressed" without you? I've publicly stated just as I have here that I want NOTHING to do with you while you're the one who's cried like a bitch multiple times because I won't unban you. Believe me you ain't that important to where you're the Stan to my Eminem (not that I'm even famous).

Also you talk of what I reminded you of? Well you reminded me of something as well.

You reminded me to be thankful for what I've got because while I may not be where I want to be as a creator currently at least I have people who genuinely want to see me succeed (vs you saying such while simultaneously trying to tear my channel down behind the scenes) as well as a much better head on my shoulders than you when it comes to a mindset and outlook on what it means to be a livestreamer.

You've reminded me of how big of a bullet I dodged in regards to NOT befriending you, not only in banning your sorry ass from my streams initially but when you came back around twice after under alts with empty apologies, complete disregard for my rules given the ban evasions, and pure disrespect towards my viewers.

You've reminded me that what I am as a creator IS enough because I could be someone worse like you and as much as I continue to reiterate that I don't like thinking like this? I'll own it proudly.

I am better than you and for how you talk of reaching a new level with your channel? I'm the final boss (no scratch that, raid boss) telling you that you aren't at MY level.

And again that statement doesn't come from conceit but because as I've said I know my self worth and how to stay humble through my aspirations, knowing I'm a badass but not a blowhard.

That and also because I took the time over the years to learn from and admit my mistake while trying to be a better person for myself and those around me while you weren't even willing to learn from someone here who even after the ban still tried to give a little advice for you to learn from.

I tried to be what I want to embody as a YouTube partner in helping others because news flash chief, a lot of other streamers would've banned you without a word let alone a warning for doing a self promo but I gave you more chances than you honestly deserved with the warning and a time out and you blew it each time.

I'm better than you not because I put myself on a pedestal but because you lower yourself down into the sewers with the rest of the trash and crap your attitude is indifferent from.

And what you need to understand as well is that at anytime I wanted I could've done an "Addressing My Stalker Part II" stream absolutely crushed you as a creator with everything else I know that you've said and done. After all, there's a comments you've made about people in special ed, homophobic remarks, and evidence of you bullying someone who said they're 12 while claiming you're in your 20's. Again dude, people are talking, a lot.

But I don't have to because you've been digging a grave for your channel on your own just fine without my help.

And you also need to understand that as far as me contacting the police on you before (who I admit didn't help in the end though not for you not committing crimes but other outside factors) wasn't me being afraid of you.

See, I was trying to give you a chance to back off due to the person I'm actually afraid of.

Me.

This side of me you've met now that I don't like showing due to what I tend to say with no fucks given.

This side of me that comes out when someone tips that metaphorical angel or asshole scale inside my head to where the needle breaks off in favor of the latter.

This side of me here that's giving you another reminder of things in that going into livestreaming thinking you can walk on everyone and assert authority you don't have and demand respect you haven't earned is a good way to piss off the wrong people and get chased back out of the streaming community the way you came in.

And that's what should concern you. All of this is me not being pissed or ragebaited but calm, in control, and still showing a lot of restraint in regards to just how much I could truly tear you apart verbally and show you with little effort and very decisively just how out of your depth you are if I stopped holding back, how much you fucked around and found out in regards to bullying and stalking people.

And that's the thing about bullies. They hate to be humiliated and to feel powerless and here I am showing you that you are not only a joke but that I have no fear over you and thus you no power over me.

Like really you talk about being a "master of ragebaiting" yet are the most butthurt individual I've ever met in my life regarding getting banned from my channel.

"Stop getting mad and timing me out for five minutes" as you said when I timed you out before the ban.

No, how about you stop getting mad and bitching for several months over a problem you yourself created?

And also what I find hilarious is those times you tried to act tough in your posts saying that I "got what I deserved" that I "got what was coming to me" blah blah blah as if you won all the verbal battles we had before.

And yet it was me that verbally kicked your ass every time with no effort to the point that you deleted your posts with claims to your viewers that it was because you "didn't want anyone asking what was going on". That's the point of a community post in that its TO tell your community what's going on in your life.

No you deleted the posts because you didn't want your community seeing how much of a fake and how much of an asshole you are which is why I made sure to keep receipts.

And also lets not talk about how word has gone around that for all the shit you talk you got punked in your own comments for one of your "raps" by some rando with only a few follows to the point that you haven't uploaded another rap since.

Which goes hand in hand with how you stopped doing GTAV content which just so happened to be not long after I made it known to you that people were saying things about all the underage kids you were playing a mature rated game with.

A comment you made some time ago was how I thought I "won" against you. Its not a matter of winning or losing but I think its safe to say that if it was? You're god damn right I've won.

Because here's the thing, this wasn't me roasting or burning you. Burning someone in an argument like its namesake that leaves a bit of pain for a short time that eventually heals and goes away.

This has been me dissecting you, cutting deep and leaving a wound that takes considerable time to heal, with a lot of things you didn't think I was aware of that I brought to light here being the scalpel.

The thing about me though is I HATE fighting and hate being cruel. I hate arguing with people, its not my way of life to wish harm on anyone, I try to stay out of drama, and I'd much rather help people than be hateful considering how fucked up this planet is and how much human beings treat their fellow man so horribly, at times being unforgivably evil to each other.

But you started this with me, and people that mean a lot to me and put me to a point where after multiple times that I tried to be the better man and walk away? I'm done being civil.

So all the fear you tried (and failed) to instill in me and also when you targeted my friends trying to intimidate them? I have no shame in saying that I hope my words here (some of it being things I'm sure you didn't think I knew about) have obliterated that ego of yours with the realization of how much you've screwed up and I also hope you feel that same fear yourself in knowing you're going to fail, that its your own fault, and that there's nothing you can do to stop it.

Now you say all this as if you regret it and state that it won't happen again (again, good job on proving me right on knowing it was just another lie).

I'm telling you that it's best that it doesn't.

After all, your little video you tried to say was better than the one where I called you out with enough screenshots to ruin you then and there, you know, the one where all you did was spend six minutes calling me names, insulting my viewers, etc with no actual evidence against me on things and thus you simply proving you were harassing and stalking me before your admittance?

You said it was over for me and my channel and I love how arrogant you sounded in that and throughout the video given how much karma has come back not only to bite you but give you a kick to your own teeth.

I bet you don't feel too cocky now given I'm still here, a lot of things moving forward and thriving with my channel because I've been trying to focus on myself, while you're the one who outed himself as a stalker to put another nail in the coffin of his own channel to go along with everything else he did to squander any chance of success because he simply couldn't mind his own business.

Remove everything about me from your channel with no more mention of me ever again at all.

Completely unsub from my channel (and the channels of any of my friends you've been following).

And leave all of us alone.

Because if you don't take this to heart (not that you have one) after already confessing to what you did and claiming to be remorseful plus everything I said here that I reiterate was more firm advice than you deserve from me yet nowhere close to the worst criticism you could've got, far less then that's on you if you want to lose not just more credibility as a content creator but cause even more damage to your channel to go with everything else you've destroyed for yourself in the long run given this would also be you going back on your word to your own audience (which you have now done and they WILL find out about). And when that does happen don't bitch and cry about it because you could've prevented it.

Seriously, don't even reply to this, just let it go and move on just as I myself have attempted to multiple times.

Since I stopped going back and forth with you before and started focusing more on myself I've landed another partnership, had a few channel milestones on both YouTube and Twitch, made a few merch sales, and my content has seen a lot of growth in views and hours while your channel has slowed down since you started all this and tried to keep drama going, take that as a sign. Your fault, your screw up, should've left it alone.

It's all pointless drama that needs to stop and that you never should've started, especially over something as simple as you breaking a channel rule.

You say all I had to do was compliment your (which again, I did).

Well all you had to do was apologize from the beginning instead of being rude after and reaching the point where it was too late for forgiveness when you came back later and tried to apologize (which btw happened after you started spam disliking my streams so I already knew it was insincere then as well).

Because if you had initially apologized? Yea, we could have possibly been friends dude, just as I try to open the door for friendship to anyone who comes by my channel.

But once again all you did was give countless reasons for why I was right for banning you back in February and to be thankful that I didn't become friends with someone as horrible as you.

More so give its not just me you attacked but also people I care about with you thinking you were actually a big deal to where trying to intimidate me into unbanning you was actually going to me make choose you over them, that it was going to lead to me allowing you back in my chat to coexist with those people who are my friends, those I love which would've been a slap in the face to all of them and lead to them losing respect for me and burning bridges with me.

Yea, safe to say I'm always gonna choose my friends over someone who spent only two streams talking to me before getting his ass banished to the shadow realm because of his attitude.

And for the record, "you act like nobody gave a damn when you hit 100 subs".

People gave a damn when I did.

In comparison to how nobody's gonna give a damn when you lose all your subs when your channel is gone.

This is all else I'm going to say on this but hopefully you do learn from this for yourself and for those around you.

And I myself have no time to humor this anymore because I have my own life to worry about just as you should've stayed focal on your own and not everyone else's.